Category: Personal

Thirty-Six

[CW: sexual assault, verbal abuse, abusive relationship, ideological detransition/conversion practices] Almost a year ago, I turned thirty-six and realized that my relationship with Devorah had began with her sexually assaulting me. This happened when I had just turned thirty and technically she was thirty-five but she would turn thirty-six a few months later and I… Continue reading Thirty-Six

Seeing Myself in the Stories of Other Conversion Therapy Survivors

Originally published on Trans Safety Network under the title Ky Schever’s experience with ideologically driven detransition Back when I was still in the detransitioned radical feminist community, I watched the Miseducation of Cameron Post with another detransitioned woman. That movie is about a teenage lesbian in the US who’s sent to a Christian ex-gay camp… Continue reading Seeing Myself in the Stories of Other Conversion Therapy Survivors

Feeling Regret About My Detransition and Past Activism

I’ve been feeling a lot of regret about my past actions. I feel as though I lost about six years of my life. I think back over that time and think about all that I wish hadn’t happened, how I wish I hadn’t done this or that, or that I’d gone about things differently. There’s… Continue reading Feeling Regret About My Detransition and Past Activism

Risks/harms of ideological detransition/“alternative treatments for gender dysphoria”

Several months ago, I decided to write out the negative effects of my detransition and came up with the following list. I divided the list up between what I experienced while detransitioning and when I came out as trans again, after deciding that detransition hadn’t worked for me.

The Reality Behind the Story I Told: What My Life was Like When I was Interviewed for the Stranger

Back when I was still a detrans woman, I was interviewed a few times by journalists for articles on detransitioning. The article that drew the most attention and the strongest reactions from people was a piece written by Katie Herzog that appeared in The Stranger. Many trans people and their allies found the article offensive… Continue reading The Reality Behind the Story I Told: What My Life was Like When I was Interviewed for the Stranger

My Views on Transphobic Detrans People

I want to be upfront with how I view detransitioned people who believe in transphobic ideologies. When I was detrans, I hid my real views on trans people because I didn’t want to suffer the consequences of being openly transphobic. I rationalized what I was doing at the time but now I recognize that I… Continue reading My Views on Transphobic Detrans People

Healing from the Past

Originally posted on Medium 1/22/21 [CW: mention of suicidal impulses, addiction, self-destructiveness, transphobia] I keep thinking back on what my life was like when I was at my most fanatical. I was working on a farm in Oregon. I didn’t know anyone in the area. I was very depressed and hated myself. I felt like… Continue reading Healing from the Past

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Working Towards Acceptance

Originally published on Medium on 1/3/21 When I detransitioned, I believed that I’d finally figured out what I was and was in the process of solving my gender issues once and for all. I didn’t think I’d be hit with intense doubts four-five years in. It was shocking but at the same time unsurprising. I’d… Continue reading Working Towards Acceptance

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Coming Out

I originally wrote this for my old tumblr blog some time during the summer of 2020. I ended up deleting my tumblr and my other online media related to detransition a few months later. Detransitioning didn’t work out for me. About five years after detransitioning, I started wondering if it had really been worth it.… Continue reading Coming Out